Absent Minded Mommy

I have a confession.. I have been an absent minded mommy.. :(

I am feeling so guilty now.. These few months I have been the worst mom I can ever be.. I have been so busy with house works, packing, arrangements and any other errands but being a present mommy. Yes, I have completely forgotten about being a 'present' mommy for my beloved Jayden.

I have been scolding Jayden when he wasn't being obedient. I have been throwing tantrums when Jayden wasn't listening to me. I have been shouting at him when he didn't come immediately after I called for two times. I have been a spoilt mom and took advantages of Jayden, as he is always unwilling to see me hurt and angry, he will quickly apologize and obey me.

Jayden has been such a good little boy, I would say a matured one for his age. And being an absent minded mommy.. I was completely out of my mind for so long!!

I have unknowingly created a fearful and stressful environment for him for the last few months. Finally when things are almost settled, I have time to reflect on what I have achieved and none of them are related to Jayden! I had not been playing with him like we used to, had not even "chatted" with him the way we used to, had not cared about his feelings and emotions at all, had cut down our story time to just 3 minutes, had used "Note and TV" to babysit him, and the list goes on. I feel terribly sorry now. :(

I must change now!! I thank GOD for giving me the wisdom to realize it before it's too late. I need to start to manage my time wisely so I can do my things when Jayden wasn't around. Changes that are going to take place the first thing when we woke up tomorrow:

1. I MUST include him as a task in my to do list, not just moving and packing related matters. 
2. I MUST speak softly to Jayden (not raise my voice).  
3. I MUST speak gently with Jayden (not scold). 
4. I MUST allow Jayden to make mistake (It's OK to make mistake!). 
5. I MUST create a positive and encouraging environment for Jayden. 
6. I MUST create a happy and fun home for Jayden. 
7. I MUST prioritize on spending quality time with him when he is around me. 
8. I MUST take his feelings and needs seriously.
9. I MUST be present whenever spending time with him, not to be absent minded. 
10. I MUST bring him to the playground and exercise together again. 
11. I MUST extend our story time by reading a few books like we used to do. 
12. I MUST bring back our fun soapy bath time again. 
13. I MUST monitor closely how long he utilizes the gadgets (not letting him sitting in front for hours). 
14. I MUST do things together with Jayden (not asking him to go away and do his things). 

Thank you GOD for letting me know now. I am going to put this in my desktop as a reminder. I MUST CHANGE!!! JIA YOU!!