Second Day of Delivery

Honey was staying in the hospital with me since labor. He knew I needed his support very much and I would not be able to go through it by myself if he wasn't beside me. Thank you so much for your support honey. I love you so much.

J was still sleeping when mother in law and sister in law came to visit us in the afternoon. After an hour or so, J finally opened his eyes, but barely for a few minutes, J dozed off again. Mother in law urged me to wake him up so they could see him not only that, I could feed him too. However, my gut feeling told me that I should not disturb his sleep. He would wake up when he is hungry.

Pictures were taken when in laws are around.. I found Jayden looked so cute!!!!! :)




Hmmm.. Never understand why SJMC used such flowery clothes for a baby boy.. They should be a little more "sei sum".

Finally, my in-laws left. I’m worried because J did not wake up and hasn’t been fed for 24 hours. At around 6pm, the nurse came again and said he needs to bring J go. I told her that I have not fed J for many hours because he did not wake up. She said it is ok and she will bring him back at night. Oh boy, I miss J so much.

Tonight, I had roti canai and maggi goreng for dinner, because the dinner served sucks. Honey went out to buy me dinner before J was brought to the nursery, when honey got back; J was already in the nursery.

Today, the nurse brought J back earlier. J was awake and the nurse asked me to feed him. Without hesitation, I happily fed J. When J unlatched his mouth, I let him share bed with me. I felt so protective, and I felt a strange feeling of being a mother. I enjoyed looking at him, and through the night, I opened my eyes occasionally to observe him, and of course my honey too. :)

Pictures were taken when I was so bored waiting for honey to "tapau" dinner for me.. Yeah.. hospital serves "un-yummy" food.. LOL!! :P

Jayden is Born!!!

Today, Jayden J-Yen Ong is born into this wondrous world.

The moment J detached from my body, I heard him crying. Then, I heard him sucking something, oh, he was sucking his fingers (I found that out from the pictures honey took. Thanks honey, else I won’t have the chance to see how he looks like when he is newly born). :)

I gave birth to Jayden at 3.56pm. I only had a glimpse of his figure when the nurse carried him to the side on my right, which is about 4-5 feet away from me I think. When I saw this figure, the feeling was very mixed, I was still in pain, I wanted to hold my baby but I was too exhausted. I couldn’t even blurt out a whole sentence; partially thanks to the oxygen gas that made me high and giddy.

I will never forget the ultimate experience. It's so unbearable.. PAINFUL!!! I still can remember clearly how honey was beside me supporting me through the whole journey of delivery. I am so thankful and grateful that honey was there for me else I barely can make it. I was so discouraged by the nurse that I thought I won't make it. The pain makes me lost control over my emotion and expression, the nurse thought I was losing control, in fact, I just need to release the pain. Anyway.. thanks honey. I love you. :)

As for how the oxygen getting over me, haha.. well, this is something I need to note down before I forgot. During the labor, I made sure that I didn't take in too much oxygen because Lena told me the oxygen could help me to relief pain, or made me too high that I wouldn't be able to deliver. Therefore, I used it in moderation. However, after J was detached, I still feel the pain in my lower abdomen, since Dr Mak said it's because my womb was getting back into places that caused the pain, i took in as much oxygen as possible to relief the pain, since I have already delivered J!! :P

When I was still struggling to believe I had made it, yes, I had given birth to Jayden naturally, without any painkiller or medicine, I wondered where they have taken my baby to. I thought my baby was supposed to be with me right after birth.

At 7pm, the nurse sent Jayden to me. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I met J. He’s so cute, so tiny, and he’s sleeping soundly and peacefully. However, I couldn’t recognize him. The feeling was so strange; he’s so familiar yet so unfamiliar to me. He’s my son but it’s the first time I met him in real, in person! I did not know how to react, how to show him love, and how should I feel at that time.

At around 8.30pm, the nurse came back and asked me if I have fed J as she needed to bring him away. Oh, I didn’t know that I am supposed to feed him, plus J is sleeping! Nobody tell me that I need to feed him when he was taken to me. So the nurse is giving me a little bit of time to feed J first. I breast fed J for the first time. With nature instinct, he gently suckles for milk. He was so close to me, so small in size, his mouth was so tiny, he has a little bit of rash on the corner of his eyes. I was a little worried about the rash but I heard the rash will go off very soon.

In about ten minutes, the nurse came back and said she has to bring J go. J was still suckling milk and she said I need to stop him and feed him again later. I almost cry. The nurse reassured me that she will bring back J to me at 10pm. I let them go.

However, when J came back to me, he was sleeping. I thought I would feed him when he woke up; however, he slept and slept and slept until the next day.

Pictures of my dearest newborn son Jayden Ong J Yen:

Pre-Labor!

Yesterday, there was 1-2 streaks of super fine pinkish blood streaks appeared. We went to see Dr Mak but he was on call for labor. So, we just go home and see if there is any more symptoms.

Today, at around 9am when I woke up, I found blood streaks.. quite a lot of them. Immediately, I call honey and he asked me to get ready to be admitted. After taking a shower and getting ready my things, I called Dr Mak, and he told me to be admitted. However, he called back again and asked me to go to his clinic to double confirm, just in case it is a false alarm again. :P

Honey came back at around 10.30am. We went straight to Dr Mak's clinic, and waited for about an hour. He confirmed that I'm ready to deliver as I have dilated about 4cm!! He asked me to be admitted immediately. But I insisted to have a hair wash at Irene's place. :P

The contraction pain started when I was washing my hair at Irene's place. At 12pm, we rushed to SJMC and there I was admitted. I have already dilated 6cm when I was admitted. Very quickly, I have dilated to 8cm, meanwhile the pain was getting more and more intense and the nurse was teaching me how to push. By 1.30pm, the pain was so intense that I thought I can deliver already. But the nurse asked me not to push as I have not dilated to 10cm as it could cause my vagina swollen.

Finally, at around 2pm, the nurse confirmed that I can start to push (I thought I have dilated 10cm!). The Chinese nurse kept on saying that I didn't push, she asked me to push again and again. I didn't understand. I followed instruction properly and why the hell did she keep on saying I didn't push. The real pain kicks in at around 2pm something, my godness, I never thought the contraction pain could be so painful. It was totally out of my expectation. For the final one hour, I was struggling with the real hardcore intense pain and nearly thought I wasn't going to make it. Thank God, Dr Mak came into rescue and properly guided me with total encouragement (unlike the nurse - kept on discourage me).

At 3.56pm, Jayden was born into this world. And before seeing Jayden, I heard his first cries, his real solid cries. :)

Going to December..

Today we woke up very early.. it's BNI!!

For the past 2 weeks, other than the increasing weight of my tummy, I have been having this funny feeling underneath, like something is digging out from my bottom. Is that Jayden? Well, the feeling is getting more and more obvious when it is closer to the expected date of delivery.

This morning, I was just having a conversation with Terrie and Yee Leng that the delivery might be in December, since there is no sign that Jayden is coming out, other than the funny feeling down there. However, Terrie said it could be anytime soon since I have got that feeling, I told her Dr Mak said that a month ago. :P

They were asking me if we would be going to Elaine's fullmoon on the coming Saturday, Nov28,08. "Of course, if I still haven't delivered. Well, most likely we are going, since there is no sign that I will deliver in these few days," I said.

Slowly, my strong feeling that Jayden is coming in this month has shifted to December. "Perhaps in early December," I thought to myself.

It's Close!!

It's BNI this morning!!! I'm like a zombie for the whole day.. :(

For some reasons, I have a strong feeling that Jayden will arrive in this month, in the end of November. :) Hmmm.. I have been telling everyone that I'm close to.. isn't it crazy?? Hehe..

Hmmm.. I don't wan't the delivery to be too early because I want him to be fully develop inside my womb, so he is stronger and healthier to cope with the new environment - the real world. If Jayden comes in the end of the month, he will be delivered at least 3 weeks earlier than his expected due date.

Well, I read from BabyCenter that all babies born afte 35weeks are considered fullterm. Therefore, I think 3 weeks earlier is just fine, exactly what I want, because babies develop at different rate, and I think 37weeks will be just fine. :)

For some reasons, I wish Jayden will be delivered on the date that I like. If possible, it will be good if it falls on Nov 26-30 or Dec1-3. These are the dates that I like for some unexplanable reasons. Hehe.. Well, I like the date Dec17 too! In case J comes earlier, you know.. :)