Jayden is Born!!!

Today, Jayden J-Yen Ong is born into this wondrous world.

The moment J detached from my body, I heard him crying. Then, I heard him sucking something, oh, he was sucking his fingers (I found that out from the pictures honey took. Thanks honey, else I won’t have the chance to see how he looks like when he is newly born). :)

I gave birth to Jayden at 3.56pm. I only had a glimpse of his figure when the nurse carried him to the side on my right, which is about 4-5 feet away from me I think. When I saw this figure, the feeling was very mixed, I was still in pain, I wanted to hold my baby but I was too exhausted. I couldn’t even blurt out a whole sentence; partially thanks to the oxygen gas that made me high and giddy.

I will never forget the ultimate experience. It's so unbearable.. PAINFUL!!! I still can remember clearly how honey was beside me supporting me through the whole journey of delivery. I am so thankful and grateful that honey was there for me else I barely can make it. I was so discouraged by the nurse that I thought I won't make it. The pain makes me lost control over my emotion and expression, the nurse thought I was losing control, in fact, I just need to release the pain. Anyway.. thanks honey. I love you. :)

As for how the oxygen getting over me, haha.. well, this is something I need to note down before I forgot. During the labor, I made sure that I didn't take in too much oxygen because Lena told me the oxygen could help me to relief pain, or made me too high that I wouldn't be able to deliver. Therefore, I used it in moderation. However, after J was detached, I still feel the pain in my lower abdomen, since Dr Mak said it's because my womb was getting back into places that caused the pain, i took in as much oxygen as possible to relief the pain, since I have already delivered J!! :P

When I was still struggling to believe I had made it, yes, I had given birth to Jayden naturally, without any painkiller or medicine, I wondered where they have taken my baby to. I thought my baby was supposed to be with me right after birth.

At 7pm, the nurse sent Jayden to me. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I met J. He’s so cute, so tiny, and he’s sleeping soundly and peacefully. However, I couldn’t recognize him. The feeling was so strange; he’s so familiar yet so unfamiliar to me. He’s my son but it’s the first time I met him in real, in person! I did not know how to react, how to show him love, and how should I feel at that time.

At around 8.30pm, the nurse came back and asked me if I have fed J as she needed to bring him away. Oh, I didn’t know that I am supposed to feed him, plus J is sleeping! Nobody tell me that I need to feed him when he was taken to me. So the nurse is giving me a little bit of time to feed J first. I breast fed J for the first time. With nature instinct, he gently suckles for milk. He was so close to me, so small in size, his mouth was so tiny, he has a little bit of rash on the corner of his eyes. I was a little worried about the rash but I heard the rash will go off very soon.

In about ten minutes, the nurse came back and said she has to bring J go. J was still suckling milk and she said I need to stop him and feed him again later. I almost cry. The nurse reassured me that she will bring back J to me at 10pm. I let them go.

However, when J came back to me, he was sleeping. I thought I would feed him when he woke up; however, he slept and slept and slept until the next day.

Pictures of my dearest newborn son Jayden Ong J Yen: