RL Success Journal

Here are the piece and parcel that make up all the little precious and joyous footsteps of my motherhood life in pursue of happiness and success...

12.28.2008

Full Moon Party

It's Jayden's fullmoon party tonight! :)

Guests start coming in at 7pm. Wow! That's early for Malaysian to be on time. :P I am very surprised that quite a number of guests showed up. Although we have some guests who couldn't make it at the very last minute, we still have easily 60-70pax sitting in the living room and front yard.

J was sleeping soundly at the sofa in the living room. More and more gifts and hampers piled up at the side of the sofa, all of them were for Jayden! :) A few close friends couldn't wait to carry Jayden even though he was sleeping soundly at the living room.

Around 8pm, honey broadcast a presentation dedicated for Jayden. All the guests were impressed by his presentation, some of the female friends felt that the presentation is very touching that they almost burst into tears.. wow...unbelievable!! Hehe.. :P

The party ended at around 11pm. That's when I had my dinner - the leftover from the party. Thank God there were still a few pieces of Satay left for me and hubby. :)

12.18.2008

Playing Turning..


In the afternoon, we were playing with Jayden. I couldn't believe that due to the passion to take photograph, honey just left Jayden crying. That's how he managed to take some pictures of Jayden and the frog for his story telling in Facebook. Haha.. :P

To our utmost surprise, Jayden was trying to turn to his back. Well.. he didn't manage to turn around but half way thru - turn to his side. Haha.. well, what to expect, J is only 3weeks old!! But for a 3weeks old baby, he learned very fast. :)

11.30.2008

Second Day of Delivery

Honey was staying in the hospital with me since labor. He knew I needed his support very much and I would not be able to go through it by myself if he wasn't beside me. Thank you so much for your support honey. I love you so much.

J was still sleeping when mother in law and sister in law came to visit us in the afternoon. After an hour or so, J finally opened his eyes, but barely for a few minutes, J dozed off again. Mother in law urged me to wake him up so they could see him not only that, I could feed him too. However, my gut feeling told me that I should not disturb his sleep. He would wake up when he is hungry.

Pictures were taken when in laws are around.. I found Jayden looked so cute!!!!! :)




Hmmm.. Never understand why SJMC used such flowery clothes for a baby boy.. They should be a little more "sei sum".

Finally, my in-laws left. I’m worried because J did not wake up and hasn’t been fed for 24 hours. At around 6pm, the nurse came again and said he needs to bring J go. I told her that I have not fed J for many hours because he did not wake up. She said it is ok and she will bring him back at night. Oh boy, I miss J so much.

Tonight, I had roti canai and maggi goreng for dinner, because the dinner served sucks. Honey went out to buy me dinner before J was brought to the nursery, when honey got back; J was already in the nursery.

Today, the nurse brought J back earlier. J was awake and the nurse asked me to feed him. Without hesitation, I happily fed J. When J unlatched his mouth, I let him share bed with me. I felt so protective, and I felt a strange feeling of being a mother. I enjoyed looking at him, and through the night, I opened my eyes occasionally to observe him, and of course my honey too. :)

Pictures were taken when I was so bored waiting for honey to "tapau" dinner for me.. Yeah.. hospital serves "un-yummy" food.. LOL!! :P

11.29.2008

Jayden is Born!!!

Today, Jayden J-Yen Ong is born into this wondrous world.

The moment J detached from my body, I heard him crying. Then, I heard him sucking something, oh, he was sucking his fingers (I found that out from the pictures honey took. Thanks honey, else I won’t have the chance to see how he looks like when he is newly born). :)

I gave birth to Jayden at 3.56pm. I only had a glimpse of his figure when the nurse carried him to the side on my right, which is about 4-5 feet away from me I think. When I saw this figure, the feeling was very mixed, I was still in pain, I wanted to hold my baby but I was too exhausted. I couldn’t even blurt out a whole sentence; partially thanks to the oxygen gas that made me high and giddy.

I will never forget the ultimate experience. It's so unbearable.. PAINFUL!!! I still can remember clearly how honey was beside me supporting me through the whole journey of delivery. I am so thankful and grateful that honey was there for me else I barely can make it. I was so discouraged by the nurse that I thought I won't make it. The pain makes me lost control over my emotion and expression, the nurse thought I was losing control, in fact, I just need to release the pain. Anyway.. thanks honey. I love you. :)

As for how the oxygen getting over me, haha.. well, this is something I need to note down before I forgot. During the labor, I made sure that I didn't take in too much oxygen because Lena told me the oxygen could help me to relief pain, or made me too high that I wouldn't be able to deliver. Therefore, I used it in moderation. However, after J was detached, I still feel the pain in my lower abdomen, since Dr Mak said it's because my womb was getting back into places that caused the pain, i took in as much oxygen as possible to relief the pain, since I have already delivered J!! :P

When I was still struggling to believe I had made it, yes, I had given birth to Jayden naturally, without any painkiller or medicine, I wondered where they have taken my baby to. I thought my baby was supposed to be with me right after birth.

At 7pm, the nurse sent Jayden to me. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I met J. He’s so cute, so tiny, and he’s sleeping soundly and peacefully. However, I couldn’t recognize him. The feeling was so strange; he’s so familiar yet so unfamiliar to me. He’s my son but it’s the first time I met him in real, in person! I did not know how to react, how to show him love, and how should I feel at that time.

At around 8.30pm, the nurse came back and asked me if I have fed J as she needed to bring him away. Oh, I didn’t know that I am supposed to feed him, plus J is sleeping! Nobody tell me that I need to feed him when he was taken to me. So the nurse is giving me a little bit of time to feed J first. I breast fed J for the first time. With nature instinct, he gently suckles for milk. He was so close to me, so small in size, his mouth was so tiny, he has a little bit of rash on the corner of his eyes. I was a little worried about the rash but I heard the rash will go off very soon.

In about ten minutes, the nurse came back and said she has to bring J go. J was still suckling milk and she said I need to stop him and feed him again later. I almost cry. The nurse reassured me that she will bring back J to me at 10pm. I let them go.

However, when J came back to me, he was sleeping. I thought I would feed him when he woke up; however, he slept and slept and slept until the next day.

Pictures of my dearest newborn son Jayden Ong J Yen:


Pre-Labor!

Yesterday, there was 1-2 streaks of super fine pinkish blood streaks appeared. We went to see Dr Mak but he was on call for labor. So, we just go home and see if there is any more symptoms.

Today, at around 9am when I woke up, I found blood streaks.. quite a lot of them. Immediately, I call honey and he asked me to get ready to be admitted. After taking a shower and getting ready my things, I called Dr Mak, and he told me to be admitted. However, he called back again and asked me to go to his clinic to double confirm, just in case it is a false alarm again. :P

Honey came back at around 10.30am. We went straight to Dr Mak's clinic, and waited for about an hour. He confirmed that I'm ready to deliver as I have dilated about 4cm!! He asked me to be admitted immediately. But I insisted to have a hair wash at Irene's place. :P

The contraction pain started when I was washing my hair at Irene's place. At 12pm, we rushed to SJMC and there I was admitted. I have already dilated 6cm when I was admitted. Very quickly, I have dilated to 8cm, meanwhile the pain was getting more and more intense and the nurse was teaching me how to push. By 1.30pm, the pain was so intense that I thought I can deliver already. But the nurse asked me not to push as I have not dilated to 10cm as it could cause my vagina swollen.

Finally, at around 2pm, the nurse confirmed that I can start to push (I thought I have dilated 10cm!). The Chinese nurse kept on saying that I didn't push, she asked me to push again and again. I didn't understand. I followed instruction properly and why the hell did she keep on saying I didn't push. The real pain kicks in at around 2pm something, my godness, I never thought the contraction pain could be so painful. It was totally out of my expectation. For the final one hour, I was struggling with the real hardcore intense pain and nearly thought I wasn't going to make it. Thank God, Dr Mak came into rescue and properly guided me with total encouragement (unlike the nurse - kept on discourage me).

At 3.56pm, Jayden was born into this world. And before seeing Jayden, I heard his first cries, his real solid cries. :)

11.27.2008

Going to December..

Today we woke up very early.. it's BNI!!

For the past 2 weeks, other than the increasing weight of my tummy, I have been having this funny feeling underneath, like something is digging out from my bottom. Is that Jayden? Well, the feeling is getting more and more obvious when it is closer to the expected date of delivery.

This morning, I was just having a conversation with Terrie and Yee Leng that the delivery might be in December, since there is no sign that Jayden is coming out, other than the funny feeling down there. However, Terrie said it could be anytime soon since I have got that feeling, I told her Dr Mak said that a month ago. :P

They were asking me if we would be going to Elaine's fullmoon on the coming Saturday, Nov28,08. "Of course, if I still haven't delivered. Well, most likely we are going, since there is no sign that I will deliver in these few days," I said.

Slowly, my strong feeling that Jayden is coming in this month has shifted to December. "Perhaps in early December," I thought to myself.

11.20.2008

It's Close!!

It's BNI this morning!!! I'm like a zombie for the whole day.. :(

For some reasons, I have a strong feeling that Jayden will arrive in this month, in the end of November. :) Hmmm.. I have been telling everyone that I'm close to.. isn't it crazy?? Hehe..

Hmmm.. I don't wan't the delivery to be too early because I want him to be fully develop inside my womb, so he is stronger and healthier to cope with the new environment - the real world. If Jayden comes in the end of the month, he will be delivered at least 3 weeks earlier than his expected due date.

Well, I read from BabyCenter that all babies born afte 35weeks are considered fullterm. Therefore, I think 3 weeks earlier is just fine, exactly what I want, because babies develop at different rate, and I think 37weeks will be just fine. :)

For some reasons, I wish Jayden will be delivered on the date that I like. If possible, it will be good if it falls on Nov 26-30 or Dec1-3. These are the dates that I like for some unexplanable reasons. Hehe.. Well, I like the date Dec17 too! In case J comes earlier, you know.. :)

5.17.2008

Wow.. Almost Cry..

I went to look for a gynaecologist for the whole day yesterday. Mom brought me to the medical center and for some reasons, they kept me waiting for hours.

Initially, after urine testing, they confirmed that I am pregnant. I know I was pregnant (I tested the DIY Pregnancy Kit) since few days ago! Then, they asked me a lot of questions, like I was a refugee or something. They asked me if I was a citizen there, whether or not I was going to deliver my baby in the States.

Well, I told them I was just a visitor on vacation, and I would be going to deliver my baby in my home country, Malaysia. They then asked me why I needed to see a doc! Well, I just wanted to know what I needed to do and prevent. I knew nothing about pregnancy, it was my first time! Hello??

To my utmost amazement, they told me that they couldn't register me and I needed to talk to the Social Security Consultant. Why the hell did I need the SSC? I wasn't an illegal immigrant here.. Anyway.. I just left the center and looked for another doc.

Finally, I came to this private clinic.. I met Dr Nyein. She was a very nice and soft mannered lady. She told me I was already two months pregnant and she would do an ultrasound for me. At first, I couldn't see a single thing when she told me that's my baby. And she was like.. maybe it was too small I couldn't see it.. So she tried another method. There you were little J!!! I saw a Doraemon like shape figure through the ultrasound and she told me that's my baby! So cute!! He even has his own heart beat!! My heart was so touched and amazed at that moment. I was so speechless.. and full of excitement. I wished hubby was around to share this moment with me.

The picture attached is how little Jayden looks like when he was 2 months old in my womb.. :)







3.02.2008

4th Anniversary

The day of our ROM falls on February 29, 2004. In this gracious year 2008, we are celebrating our first "once in every 4 years" anniversary. February 29, 2008 is a very special day in my life.. a day full with surprises and blissfulness..

Honey have asked for a date few days before our anniversary.. He told me that I am booked for the day, as he will be bringing me for an anniversary celebration. Not knowing what time to get ready, he suddenly told me that he will bring me out at 2.30pm. My mind filled with question marks as for where we are going..

The next thing I know was I was at Irene's salon, getting a mystery hairdo and makeup. Honey picked me up at 4pm.. next thing I know was we were at Sunway Tower.. He has booked a suite!!! At 8pm, he brought me to Avanti, an American Italian Restaurant for a dinner.. Thanks for the excellent service from the staffs and the pianist! Nevertheless, thanks Sophia for the wine that complete our anniversary.. :)

Honey always impress me with surprises.. Thanks honey. I love you. :)

2.18.2008

Actions Time

I have completed a job – Helen’s US visa is approved! There are three more things I need to complete by June 2008:
1. Alan’s US visa
2. Kevin’s Passport and US visa
3. RM20,000 for me and SL for our airfares, and spending in San Francisco and other parts of US
At the mean time, Hubby and I have another dream to realize within year 2008. We need to achieve cash RM100, 000 for our new house renovation and furnishings. Our achievements are as follow:
1. June 2008 – Have on hand RM50, 000 for new house renovation and furnishings i.e. built in furniture, design and renovations
2. September 2008 – Have on hand RM50, 000 for the soft furnishings i.e. decors, loose furniture and electronics

Perturbation

I am currently reading this book called “The Secret of the Millionaire Mind”. I have been going through a massive session of perturbation right now, as I am deeply fallen into a trap, yes I am lost! I do strongly believe in the power of manifestation. I always believe that things that happen to me always happen for a good reason. My business wasn’t performing for the past one month and I was very down and lost. My energy was gone and my enthusiasm fell deep into the valley. I did not know where to start and move to. At this point of time, my husband shows me this book written by T. Harv Eker, the contents in the book mainly talks about the situation that is facing me right now. I spend a few hours reading this book every day; slowly digest the contents which I believe will help me to move out of this trap. I am giving myself a week time from now, to step out and regain my solution to ultimate freedom. By Monday, 25th February 2008, I will resume my business and bring it to a greater height, whereby I will be able to realize my Year 2008 Dreams!

Responsibilities

I have a lot of dreams, especially travelling to places that I have never been before but wishing hard to go there for a luxury vacation. I really want to go to Europe and travel to all the countries nearby such as UK, France, Spain, Switzerland, Holland, Germany, etc. On the other hand, I would also want to visit to Canada and San Francisco, US. After having the realization yesterday, despite realizing only my dreams, I found out that I have a bigger dream that is not as selfish as to realizing my own dreams, but can actually have a lot of my loved ones happy. J I can still achieve my other dreams next year; it’s just that I realize this dream before my own. It’s been a long time I haven’t met them, and I know it is always their dreams to meet all of us again. Therefore, I am thinking, will I be happier if I can get Helen, Alan and Kevin to go to the US with me and SL so that my parents can meet all of us and spend some time together? From there, I might be able to visit San Francisco too, as this is really a place that I must visit and take a lot of pictures. J

Mixed Feeling and Realization

I am very happy today; my sister Helen finally got the US visa approved. Finally, she can go to unite with my parents. Now my only concern is my two brothers, Alan and Kevin. Alan is yet to get his visa approved, and Kevin is yet to get a passport. Anyhow, my happy feeling is gone in the evening, I begin to have a feeling of missing. I can feel Helen is leaving me pretty soon. In just a few months time, she will be leaving to the US and God knows when she is coming back, or she’s there for good. For some reason, I have a strong feeling that Alan will get the visa too, and he will be leaving with Helen. Now, I can truly understand how my mom feels on the day I left with my husband SL. It was a great feeling for her to see me and thought that she finally can be together with me after couples of years of waiting, but I left her in less than one month, for good. Now, it is already 5 years since we last met face to face. I feel guilty, that I did not even consider her feeling. Dad’s is very emotional and always troubles mom with his mood swing. Mom will talk and I will listen to all her sorrows when I was there, but after I left, she has to endure all the sorrows and keep them to her own. She was telling me on the phone yesterday that hopefully when my siblings are there, dad will change for better, but I can hear that she really hopes they will be there so at least she has someone to lean on.

January 1st 2009 – A SUCCESSFUL WOMAN

This is how I look like one year later on January 1st 2009:

Shoulder length straight red hair, huge Christian Dior sunglasses, sharp but natural looking eyebrow, curvy eyelashes, fair smooth and youthful complexion, diamond earrings and necklace set – a simple 0.5C diamond on each earring and 1C diamond pendant, simple trendy and elegant blouse – greenish yellowish “fu guai” look, just passed knee length white fit pants, with diamond like button folding the pants on each side, trendy strap black high heel shoes, making me look elegantly tall and slender, a 1C diamond ring on the left middle finger, had my manicure and pedicure done, French gel tips on my fingers with little shimmering silver design – elegent!, toes with natural elegant color with silver shimmers French, on my shoulder is holding a blue denim Louis Vutton bag the size that’s not too big not too small – the one I chose at the outlet.

MY DUTY

My duty is to be SUCCESSFUL with loads of happiness, great health and wealth.